Hi guys!  I am trying to catch my breath through…  Six babies and my visitors! 
I have learned one thing about myself though all of this… 
Life is about learning…  Isn’t what its all about?  Life is never supposed  to be tamed or figured out but, the name of the game is to  always learning from experiences… 

I really have so much catching up to do!  and Oh I can tell you how much I have missed blogging.  My outlet, My solace, My escape….
My Immortal soul captured onto and imprinted in cyber space… (UM, It’s a little dramatic I know…  ha-ha BUt, sounded so, whimsical and sing songy…I had to use it!)

Some good thing have happened and some BAD things have happened…  I will catch everybody up…  With my ever changing life and i am going to redo my blog look…  I have yet been able to really feel at  “home” here on wordpress…  Maybe one day I will get it right! 

I can tell you one REALLY UBER cool thing that did happen to me.  I am OFFICIALLY on the Susan G Komen for the Cure board! How super cool is that?  I am VERY proud to be serving on a board for  such an amazing cause! 

To date I have lost nine pounds and I will tell you all about my  utterly humiliating experience at the dr el tubby-o… 

I have miss ALL of you dearly and I will be catching up with you soon…  Oh and Rambling House Wife I have you gift card waiting here to be mailed…  I will get back to you on that experience…  That card has been lost, washed, buried… You name it…  So, I bought you a brand new one!  Which is going to get mailed this week!

Happy blogging week everybody!  Be looking out for my adventures!

Group bloggy Hug!

Instead of going through long withdrawn out
The first week DID not go without drama!

1.  Took my niece and nephew and twins to Walmart…   Simple right?  Should have been…  My nephew gets sick and I mean sick, on both ends in the parking lot…  You really do not think about bringing an extra change of clothing with you for a six year old…  But, from what I understand this has happened before, with him and you guessed it…  Nobody bothered to tell me…  Thanks for the warning little brother

2.  Kids allowed dogs to come in AFTER I told them NOT TOO  Cat was waiting by the door to go outside…  Dog chases cat…  Right into a FULL 16 oz glass and spills it all over the laptop…  and you guessed it…  POOF!  It’s back at Gateway right now….  Thank God for extended warranty

3.  My Nephew likes to throw things…  rocks, cups…  You know things!  He’s a boy…  Need I say more?  I caught him throwing rocks at a window…  Yes he got in trouble for that!  But, that’s not the worse part…
I caught him throwing rocks at my daughter’s head…  And yeah…  He got into trouble for that too!  But, that’s not the worse part… 
Somewhere in-between a time I wasn’t looking DUMPED rocks, pebbles, STUFF into the pool and the bottom of the pool liner now has a FEW good holes in it…  Now I WISH it was one of those pools you bought at Walmart or Target….  But, it’s not!  The liner of the pool now has to be replaced! 

I think that is all that happened last week! 

The good news?  My niece is a great huge help with the twins!
What are they doing right now you might ask?  ON webkinz in the other computer room all of them sitting down nicely like good little boys and girls!  ( BIG SMILE!!)

And  I go and see the Fat Dr.  on Thrusday!  How cool is that?  I will have to let everybody know how that goes…  It’s time and I am so happy honey finally gave in and let me go!  He had been fighting me all the way on this so, it’s a nice change for him to be so supportive!
                                               

I have two more children with me over the summer…  I am helping  my brother out…  So, right now I am STEALING time to let you guys know that I I might be MIA for a bit.  But, will have plenty to write about when I get back!  Or when I can steal a few moments! 

Stress is through the roof!  Hey at least I am honest!!

February 19

13 People who share a birthday with me!!

13 famous people that share my birthday with me!! I Go here and check out yours!!

1717	David Garrick  A c t o r  [ d. 1779 ]
1924	Lee Marvin  A c t o r  [ d. 1987 ]
1928	Onuora Nzekwu  W r i t e r / T e a c h e r
1940	Smokey Robinson  M u s i c a l A r t i s t
1940	Bobby Rogers  M u s i c a l A r t i s t
1943	Mama Cass Elliot  M u s i c a l A r t i s t
1948	Tony Iommi  M u s i c a l A r t i s t
1953	Massimo Troisi  A c t o r  [ d. 1994 ]
1955	Jeff Daniels  A c t o r
1955	Margot Louise Hemingway  A c t r e s s  Margaux Hemingway  [ d. 1996 ]
1956	Dave Wakeling  M u s i c a l A r t i s t
1966	Justine Bateman  A c t r e s s
1967	Benicio Del Toro  A c t o r

Every Tuesday i am going to chose a recipe from a recipe source I am going to make it and then rate it!  If you would like to submit a recipe for me to try let me know!!

Happy Cooking!  Happy Eating! 

Hash Brown Casserole

Ingredients

1 2 lb. pkg. frozen Hash Browns
16 oz. Sour cream
1 can cream of chicken soup
1 stick butter
1/2 C. Chopped onion
2 C. grated Cheddar Cheese **personal note, I like sharp the best

Methods/steps

Place potatoes in a greased 9×13 inch pan. Season with salt and pepper. Melt butter in the microwave. In a bowl add minced onions, sour cream, and cream of chicken soup, and melted butter. Mix these items together. Pour soup mixture over potatoes; sprinkle with Cheddar Cheese. Bake at 350 degrees for 45 minutes, or until all is completely warm, and the cheese begins to melt.

I have a confession to make. I am a Grey’s Anatomy Addict…
I hang out at the Grey’s Anatomy Message Board.  I visit it everyday just to checkout what people are saying.  And in MY defense:
Did I mention I love “people” watching…?? 
This a great way to get into the darkness of somebody’s mind…  Celebrities have a way of doing that to people. 
I love ”Grey’s”!  Honey introduced it to me in 06 and let me tell you something he was shocked I HAD never heard of the show!  I didn’t/don’t watch TV much…  When I met honey, I would have rather been running with my friend Mitch(waves at you), reading Harry Potter, swimming, spending time with my children and at that point in time…  From about May/June of 06-Aug of 06 Honey was just a filler of time. 
Sex and the City was off, Dead Like Me got canceled and Six Feet Under was off as well….  So, really I had no use for TV…  Untill he introduced me to Grey’s Anatomy…  From that moment on I was hooked!!

While I frequent the Message Board It’s amazing to me the time and energy that people put into their theories we have the Wizard of Oz Theory then, we have the Alice in Wonderland theory…  Oh it goes on and on but, WOW! 
And if you are a fan of the show and watch it everyday…  So, you know as of Right NOW they have PlantPlotDevice aka Rose…  And don’t even go on saying that you think that she is ok…  Or maybe that she even adds something to the show.  WHEW!  You will get publicly humiliated and cyber flogged!  I know I have seen it happen. 
I rarely reply to the message board.  I am a silent stalker.  I like to watch the other masses have at it!  Ha-Ha…  But, should you happen to come across a Grey’s anatomy enthusiast don’t and I mean DON’T say anything about Rose being OK or maybe that you might even like her even if she cannot dress to save her life!…  Just smile and nod!  ha-ha…

Yesterday was mother’s day   If you are a mother, expecting, or grandmother please celebrate it and embrace YOUR day…  IT’s day a YOU earned it’s a day you should be pampered and taken care of!  Make it a special day…  Make it amazing!!

Whereas, I did have a wonderful mother’s day…  I was a little heart heavy.   Last year during this time I was getting over the events that happened during that week. 
May 9th marked a year that I almost lost my youngest son.  I know i didn’t!  So, I know what you guys are thinking you should be celebrating his life.  YOU didn’t lose him!  And so many of you are right.  But, what lingers inside my soul is what I am TRYING to get over.

It was a normal day just like any other sleep deprived day…
i got up.
Made my bottles.
Made my coffee.
I had a WIC appt that day… ( drama of course!!)
The boys were laying in their portable bassinet.
Gabrial was stirring.
So, I figured I would try and nurse him before I left
My mom was on the couch and we had normal conversation.
I felt him latch on… 
I have no idea hwat was the time span but, I am sure it’ s not much.
He stopped I thought he was sleeping.
So I just held him close to me. 
It was time for me to go and I turned him over and he didn’t look right.  I didn’t want to panic, so I laid him down.  He was blue around his lips, and I kinda shook him…  “Gabrial” no response… ” Gabrial’, no response, I screamed…   My mom shouted CPR Dolores DO CPR
I looked listen and felt NOTHING.  No heart beat No breath No life… PERIOD…
The seconds  that were tipping he became blue… My pink warm baby was blue and cold….
Ist round of CPR nothing… 
2nd round of CPR…  Nothing
I SCREAMED AGAIN…  Dear God No!  Please GOD You promised!  You PROMISED!!  PLEASE ….  I was going to start another round of CPR but, FROZE I couldn’t move…  I had a blue cold baby…  NO!!  NO!! NO!! 
During the time i was doing CPR my mom ran in and got a neighbor who happened to work at the NICU for a bit…   Just as I was going to resume my third round she came in and resumed.  I prayed like I have never prayed before…  And in the seconds that followed I watched the life of my child go right before my eyes…  From the moment we found out we were having twins… 
To the moment we brought them home…  
Changing diapers… 
Making bottles…  Nursing…. 
All the joy…  Both the little boys bring into our lives…  And in that moment…  I could lose one.  It was just too much to take. 
Then for about five mins.  My neighbor preformed CPR and all I could do was pray… 
He cried then, he would stop, he would cry then he would start up again…
EMS finally came…
And the rest?
A week in Peds-ICU, he came home with an Apnea Monitor every single time  that damn went off…  I panicked…  My life was consumed by panic and worthlessness….
At least it didn’t have to be.  But, I was diagnosed with PPD.  So, everything that happened from that moment on…  Was multiplied by 1,000…  What finally put the nail in the coffin…?  Was when one of my husband’s scorned women…  Decided she was going to sue us for a good bit of money…  She needed vindication, she needed validation she needed to be told she was right…  She gave us a deadline to pay the money or else…  Well, I have to tell you what this did to me…  I came a wreck…  I became paranoid…  It was awful… 
So, not only did I have worry about  my son’s apnea monitor going off, dealing with the fact that my SON almost died, I now had this date looming over my head… 
The date came and went and according to her she “spared” my husband because, she could have “ruined” his life… 
Never and I mean NEVER would I do this to anybody!  Never would I want to inflict more pain on a family that has just gone through such a traumatic ordeal…  It’s selfish…  But, then again if you knew this person…  Professionally she is awesome… Personally?  I will stop right there…
I was a mess…  I really was… 
Forgive?   I can tell you I don’t want to!  At least I am honest!  But, who am I hurting in the long run?  Myself…

I cried yesterday… I cried for Aunt Becky from Mommy Wants Vodka who just had her second miscarriage.  i write to you and offer, these words of comfort Honey and I had two miscarriages one Aug of 05 and one in July of 06, then we were blessed with twins…  Keep your head up!

I cried for Beth, from I should be folding laundry who lost her twin boys…  She was 26 weeks when she lost her twins…  I often wonder why things happen the way they do! 

Mother’s Day a day to be celebrated, a day for mommies to feel special for all the hard work we do…  
The first Anniversary is the worst!   So, I am sure things will get better…  I have faith!  I do!!  I know things will be better!! 
I will forgive the people who hurt me, because I can’t hold this anger with me any longer and the most important thing of all…  I will forgive myself! 

The Rambling House Wife and my Kitten’s name is Sebastian!   You have won your choice of the following!!

1.  25.00 gift card to Starbucks
or
2.  25.00 gas card/visa gift card
or
3.  30.00 gift card to your choice of restaurant-
      ie: Olive Garden, Chili’s, Outback, Ruby Tuesdays, Applebees
or
4.  30.00 gift card to Victoria Secret’s/ or other clothing outlet of your choice! 

YAY!!!  Congrats!!  YAY!!

The Rambling Housewife with 5 votes for Sebastian…  With less then an hour to go!!

 

Thirteen Things I like about Wine

 

1.  Vineyards. I love the atmoshere about them!  I have every intentions of taking honey to Napa Valley one day.  Just he and I…  Over looking the vineyards at sunset and then have a romantic dinner, dancing…. You know the rest
2.  Labels. I love the names they come up with and the artwork!
3.  Taste. Need I say more?  All time favorite?  Muscadine wine 
4.  Desert. Forget everything else.  You can have wine for desert and it is compliment.
5.  Boxes. I love the box a case of wine is packed in. I use them to transport wine glasses, and they are great for packing books.
6.  Stemware. I have an awesome collection going on and I am waiting for the perfect party to take out my Divine little set… 
7.  Wine chillers.  Best invention ever.  We have one and it holds 8 bottles and we are very close to filling it up
8.  Atmosphere. Nothing screams class more then putting on  your FMH and a  little black dress with a glass of wine in your hand…
9.  Cheese. A perfect compliment!!
10.  Barrels.  So much you can do with a wine barrel
11.  Corkscrews. Are becoming a fun thing to collect they come in all kinds of shapes, colors, themes you have cheap ones and expensive ones…  All kinds
12.  Wine quotes. Wine is bottled poetry(RL Stevenson);  and It is well to remember that there are five reasons for drinking: the arrival of a friend; one’s present or future thirst; the excellence of the wine; or any other reason (Latin saying).
13.  Chocolate.  Another perfect complement to a perfect drink!